plead for

I stand here as a cautionary tale to be so careful what you wish for
be clear on what you pray for
Because the very thing you beg and plead for
may be more pain to endure
then find yourself im prisoned worse than ever before
Turns out I have uncovered the truth
and it doesnt seem to fair
I thought I had the chance
That i could give a little life of real a chance.
It looks so good from here,
I see now I am hated
Whether I play your games or not
I just face more chance of harm a good chance for my death
Men have a hatred you see they want to fuck you in so many many many ways,
Steal My Trust
Steal My Dignity
Steal my Voice
Beat down, deep deep down
take it all so There's nothing absolutely nothing
left of my light of my very right to fight
for my very own existence was sold to you before I even
knew all that traps set in place
you let me run my race then simply to break me you let me see
see so clearly what life would look like
what I saw to be that beautiful worthy life to be
then pulled my feet from under me and said
dumb ass bitch u will never be free
that u will never see
Men dont love they despise
disrespect even more when I tried.
All of this effort all of my tries simply lead back
to
The Life
we thought
was within reach is every bit disguised
as possibility always created by lies.
I wont I wont go willingly
You dont get to watch me broken in awareness
so what get is goodbyes.